If I could only bring back the time, I will go back to that moment when I still have you by my side. If only God could give us the time to share good moments together, I will make sure that we will do all the things that we weren’t able to do when we still have you here. I want to embrace you and thank you for all the things you have given us. You have created a family so strong that even the toughest storm was not able to wipe out. We remained intact as it is what you wanted us to be. We live to your preaching, all the values and your legacy. Wherever you are, I know you will always be there to watch over us. I know your happy now and I know someday I’ll see you again and on that day, we will share all the days of forever.
We love you and we missed you so much.
HAPPY FATHER’S DAY POPS!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Reconciliation
Few incidents happened lately that causes my annoyance and frustrations with the management especially to my supervisor. I’ve had bad experiences with my supervisor that did not do much on me but not the most recent incident. I got to the point where I lose my heart to my work and to the company as well. I even got to a point where I don’t want to talk to my superior anymore. I lost my patience and I just burst out. I came in to work late (an hour daily), don’t follow instructions, mess up my performance (which of course affected my scores) and I let go of my ambition. All this happened abruptly. My friends and family witnessed the lowest point in my life. They saw how I lose my grip on my dreams. I totally went out of control.
I am doing fine now however not fully recovered. I can smile again and I don’t talk bad things too much unlike before. I still am not able to bring back that drive that made me want to reach the top. I guess it is indeed hard to bring back something that is gone. Once you let go of things, you will find hard to get it back. I have learned to let go of all the pain and all the agony I had and surprisingly, it felt good. I hold my grudge for so long and let it destroy my self. I won’t be able to do this without my friends around me, and a family to lean on. It may sound cheesy, yes. But in times that you feel that you are at your lowest, you will only hold on to those people who show care and appreciation to you.
I wrote a letter and send it to my supervisor. I feel relieved and light when I send it. He also replied to my letter and I felt the sincerity of the message.
Here’s a copy of the letter.
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Hi TL,
I was hoping we could talk this over personally but I guess you’re busy now with you new team. Just want to say sorry on how bad I acted lately. I have been unprofessional and drastically change my work attitude. Kala ko magiging Masaya ako kapag nagrebelde ako, hindi naman. I may have caused damage to the team’s performance but I promise to make it up. I may have reasons to be mad but I don’t think that’s enough for me to destroy myself and dwell on it. Feeling ko pa nahahawa na ung ibang tao sa paligid ko sa kanegahan ko. Today I let go of all the pain and bad things in my mind. It maybe hard for me to get back but I’ll try to keep a positive view on life and career from here on.
Jhay
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hi jhay,
yea, the new team's taking a lot of time. and as much as i'd like to ALWAYS have time for any of yous, mejo stretched na ung relo ko ksi ubos oras tlga.
i appreciate the acknowledgement in all this. this shows a mature approach, as you are aware of what's happening and the effects of it.
in the end, we might not be best friends, but i guess the only thing i can say is that everything that i do in the office, i do for: a. the business; b. you guys, and as such, i'm hoping we could at the least get along.
i'm here, i'm not dead. pero shempre, mejo occupied tau pareho, i will MAKE time for yous. i miss the team. i miss the good times. minus all the stress, and the nega, and bad vibes.
that being said, i hope we can move forward from where we were. and next time, pag sinabi mo na hayaan ka lang, i won't. promise. hhahaha!
***not to sound like i'm preaching again, pero seeing the effect you have when you're "nega," imagine the effect you could have if you took a "positive view on life and career from here on," as you said. i wasn't kidding when i said you have the potential. you have great influence. it's just a matter of harnessing that influence to a more agreeable result.***
TL
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I am doing fine now however not fully recovered. I can smile again and I don’t talk bad things too much unlike before. I still am not able to bring back that drive that made me want to reach the top. I guess it is indeed hard to bring back something that is gone. Once you let go of things, you will find hard to get it back. I have learned to let go of all the pain and all the agony I had and surprisingly, it felt good. I hold my grudge for so long and let it destroy my self. I won’t be able to do this without my friends around me, and a family to lean on. It may sound cheesy, yes. But in times that you feel that you are at your lowest, you will only hold on to those people who show care and appreciation to you.
I wrote a letter and send it to my supervisor. I feel relieved and light when I send it. He also replied to my letter and I felt the sincerity of the message.
Here’s a copy of the letter.
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Hi TL,
I was hoping we could talk this over personally but I guess you’re busy now with you new team. Just want to say sorry on how bad I acted lately. I have been unprofessional and drastically change my work attitude. Kala ko magiging Masaya ako kapag nagrebelde ako, hindi naman. I may have caused damage to the team’s performance but I promise to make it up. I may have reasons to be mad but I don’t think that’s enough for me to destroy myself and dwell on it. Feeling ko pa nahahawa na ung ibang tao sa paligid ko sa kanegahan ko. Today I let go of all the pain and bad things in my mind. It maybe hard for me to get back but I’ll try to keep a positive view on life and career from here on.
Jhay
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hi jhay,
yea, the new team's taking a lot of time. and as much as i'd like to ALWAYS have time for any of yous, mejo stretched na ung relo ko ksi ubos oras tlga.
i appreciate the acknowledgement in all this. this shows a mature approach, as you are aware of what's happening and the effects of it.
in the end, we might not be best friends, but i guess the only thing i can say is that everything that i do in the office, i do for: a. the business; b. you guys, and as such, i'm hoping we could at the least get along.
i'm here, i'm not dead. pero shempre, mejo occupied tau pareho, i will MAKE time for yous. i miss the team. i miss the good times. minus all the stress, and the nega, and bad vibes.
that being said, i hope we can move forward from where we were. and next time, pag sinabi mo na hayaan ka lang, i won't. promise. hhahaha!
***not to sound like i'm preaching again, pero seeing the effect you have when you're "nega," imagine the effect you could have if you took a "positive view on life and career from here on," as you said. i wasn't kidding when i said you have the potential. you have great influence. it's just a matter of harnessing that influence to a more agreeable result.***
TL
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Wednesday, June 9, 2010
First Sauna Experience
Being enrolled at Fitness First gives me the liberty of using all the facilities and services the gym has to offer. That includes the use of gym equipments, materials, and classes and also the sauna. I have tried most of the equipments and attended some classes but one thing I wish to try was the sauna. To be honest, I am not at my comfortable state when I am inside the men’s locker room. I guess for some, they know the reason why. I saw some men that go inside the sauna room just with their underwear on. They can also loiter along the paths of the locker room with just their undies on. I can’t seem to get the courage on walking in front of them almost naked.
Not until I had the chance of letting my best friend KC in. I forgot to mention, being a member also allows you to send a friend inside and use the gym as a guest. So I invited KC to join me. I guided him in using the gym equipments and all but behind our minds, we really want to jump in the sauna room to look for boys (ahaha!). After our work out, we went straight inside the sauna (which KC is thrilled on doing) to have our first sauna together. This happens to be KC’s first time as well. Both of us are new to this so we don’t know what to expect inside.
I covered myself with my shower towel while KC flaunted his body with just his undies on. Saunas in Fitness First are separated in two; dry sauna and the steam. We tried the dry sauna first since few people are inside. We are not aware that you need to wet yourself before entering the dry sauna just so you can tolerate the heat. Just after 5 or 7 minutes, we decided to go out and wet ourselves (which I guess is already late). Next, we entered the steam sauna. It is much bigger than the dry sauna. At first, I had some difficulty in breathing since the room is filled with just steam. It was much hotter than that of the dry sauna. But I feel more relax and the heat became more tolerable since we wet ourselves before getting in.
I am glad I was able to do this with KC. That made me overcome my fear and at this point, I can go to the sauna by myself. I really wish we could this again, I really do. But for now I am enjoying sauna alone.
Not until I had the chance of letting my best friend KC in. I forgot to mention, being a member also allows you to send a friend inside and use the gym as a guest. So I invited KC to join me. I guided him in using the gym equipments and all but behind our minds, we really want to jump in the sauna room to look for boys (ahaha!). After our work out, we went straight inside the sauna (which KC is thrilled on doing) to have our first sauna together. This happens to be KC’s first time as well. Both of us are new to this so we don’t know what to expect inside.
I covered myself with my shower towel while KC flaunted his body with just his undies on. Saunas in Fitness First are separated in two; dry sauna and the steam. We tried the dry sauna first since few people are inside. We are not aware that you need to wet yourself before entering the dry sauna just so you can tolerate the heat. Just after 5 or 7 minutes, we decided to go out and wet ourselves (which I guess is already late). Next, we entered the steam sauna. It is much bigger than the dry sauna. At first, I had some difficulty in breathing since the room is filled with just steam. It was much hotter than that of the dry sauna. But I feel more relax and the heat became more tolerable since we wet ourselves before getting in.
I am glad I was able to do this with KC. That made me overcome my fear and at this point, I can go to the sauna by myself. I really wish we could this again, I really do. But for now I am enjoying sauna alone.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
New Management
My current supervisor will be leaving soon, not the company but just our team. He will be handling a new set of agents coming from the transition team, the new hire agents. I am happy that I will be out from his roster. I don’t know if that’s what I really want. All I know is that I want to break away.
I am looking forward to a better management, not that the previous one is bad but I hope that the next one won’t do me any harm. If I am not mistaken, the next supervisor will be attending some trainings and other stuff that will cause delay. So the managers come up with an idea of putting an OIC to look for the team. I heard that they have selected a QSP to become our team’s OIC. Who ever the OIC and the next supervisor will be, I hope they could help me bring back that something that I’ve lost already. I hope they could help me in bringing back my drive and motivation towards my work.
I am looking forward to a better management, not that the previous one is bad but I hope that the next one won’t do me any harm. If I am not mistaken, the next supervisor will be attending some trainings and other stuff that will cause delay. So the managers come up with an idea of putting an OIC to look for the team. I heard that they have selected a QSP to become our team’s OIC. Who ever the OIC and the next supervisor will be, I hope they could help me bring back that something that I’ve lost already. I hope they could help me in bringing back my drive and motivation towards my work.
