What's inside my Mind?

Recently I saw a couple holding hands while sitting in table near to mine. Maybe I envy those people who says they found their other half but to be honest I'm happy with what I have as of the moment. I enjoyed being single and gay. Still I'm looking forward on the day that I'll find my "someone". Just had this questions in my mind.

How does it feel when you are holding your lovers hand?
I just want to know how it feels to loved and be loved?
In our world, is there such thing as courtship? Then how would it start? Who should initiate it?
How does it feel when your time is getting limited because you need to spend most of it with him?
Will it hurt if he scream at you because you did something wrong?
If its cleaver to talk on the phone the whole night with him, will you hang up first?
How does it feel to have someone text you everyday saying that they love you?

I know how it is to be alone and I know how to define loneliness. As time goes by it's seem like it's getting worst.