What's my dream?

During my teenage days, I always wanted have a wealthy life. I want to get everything that I want, eat what I want and do what I want. I want to live my teenage life to the fullest. However, that didn’t happen. I always tell stories about my best pal KC, on how he enjoys his teenage life in his own little way. He may not be rich and didn’t have everything but somehow he manages to take pleasure in things that he has.

Things changed when I enter the corporate world. I became very ambitious; I wanted to be on top, I wanted to be promoted. I wanted to get a compensation that is big enough to allow me to go to places I have never been to, to try new restaurants I haven’t tried yet, to buy the clothes that I wanted and to get things I never had. I also wanted to own a condo unit and save money as much as I could. But am I supposed to be dreaming of houses, savings, investments and insurance at this age? They say you could never go wrong if you start planning these things while you are still young but it seemed like I won’t be able to do some of the things that I really wanted to do if I put all this things on top of my list.

Now that I’m 24, I’m wondering if this is really what I want. What if I’m living someone else’s dream? If you will ask me, I’m really confused. I listened to the dreams and ambitions of the people around me and I liked the life that they want to have and somehow I wanted mine to be as perfectly planned as theirs. Maybe I’m just amazed on how these people designed their ambition and how detailed they see their future that I imitated some of it and made it my own. But if you will ask me, I wanted something else.

Music will always have a space in my heart. I love to sing. I find it very easy to express myself through music. I find immeasurable joy whenever I sing and I see myself singing till I get old. I always wanted to study in a music school and get a vocal coach or something so I can learn how to sing properly. I wanted to see myself one day singing in a stage with a guitars and piano behind me and look at those people watching me, smiling at me with a look that says “I am entertained”. I dreamed of making people smile through my music.

Just this year I found joy in traveling. I’ve been to Baguio, Bohol, Mindoro and Palawan already. I really had a great time seeing these places and hoping to see other places as well. I love the beach. If given a chance, I’d like to have a small house near the shore so every morning when I wake up I can smell the salty yet cool breeze of the sea. I love how the sand tickles my feet and pleasure of sleeping under the coconut tree is beyond compare. For me, the sunset in the beach is God’s gift. I wanted travel and see the beauty of the world and experience the all the adventure and fun it has to offer.

One of the simplest yet entertaining works that I want to have is to become a member of the crew in the movie house. I always wanted to get an update on what’s new and what’s hot in the movie industry. I love the idea of after the not-so-tiring work, you get the chance of watching whatever movie you want and you get it for free.
Writing is becoming my passion. I get an ecstatic feeling every time I post my piece on my page. I admit I am not good in grammar; it’s not my cup of tea. It is never my intention to be famous in this field. I have no plans of making a book or the like. I just want to write everything that’s going on my mind and everything that I know. When I get old, I want to see my works and recall the feeling that I had when I wrote it. Pictures can capture the moment but the emotions behind it will be best described by the wonderful words that I wrote.

These are simple yet meaningful dreams that I have right now. It may change for time to time but in heart I know I will find this dreams on top of my list. May this serve as my guide so I can recall what I want when I feel like I’m lost or when I feel like I’m caught between what is best and what my heart desires.